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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 22.06.2025 23:52

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

All the time i was locked up.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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Put me off passion for life!!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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One cannot live in the past .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

My mum and dad in the seventies!

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I was 9 years of age.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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I never cut or harmed myself..

I will be 64.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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I was very sick at this time too.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She wouldn,t have been !

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But, we were locked up after school.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She found it foreign!.

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Im still living with it.

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Would this be the day?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She married twice! .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

My life is so biszare .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Why did i forgive my father ?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

As i do to all so called friends.?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Comes on , in middle age.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was seconnd youngest,

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I said to her

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Ive learnt so much.

I was scared of men, in general

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

This is soul school!.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He knew the spot.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

It was going to be , some day.

I have no regrets .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

What did i know ?

She loved him until the end.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

When she asked me how she looked .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I think the readers, may guess!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I couldn’t, believe it.

So whats the point in blame.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I don,t even have a pension.

Who then, do I blame.?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

So, i spoilt her more .

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But ive been too sick for many years..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

My family never makes their pension either.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But it wasn’t much.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

We were not on the streets..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We all went to grammer schools

I write beautiful poetry .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She was in good health!

I waited trembling.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He resisted the act ,that day.

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And i lived it daily.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.